ready to climb up from the deepest down

the company i visited today is quite spacious in its rectangular shape and has a clean environment, which reminds me of Triumph Motorcycle Ltd., they are both resemble in this way.

it was hard to concentrate. All what in my mind were “changing job”, “this is not what i want”, “i don’t want to be an engineer after this”…etc. Yet I’m still quite wondering: what do i want? What do I lack? What do I need?

i need a break, and “small summer” would be a great chance for this. i called Becky and she’s totally alright with my visiting Hong Kong. she doesn’t have summer holidays as i do, occasionally has to work on Saturdays. anyway, i will have to check up my schedule again, seems like i can only fly to Hong Kong after small summer, but that’s even better, as i can spend my small summer holidays on scuba diving course! grrrrrrreat! busy summer is coming, and i totally look forward to it!

i planned to swim just as i usually did, but as antoinette had fever and her body temperature was a bit high, me and mom decided to take her to children clinic. while we were on scooter, she sat between me and mom and her small arms around my waist and that was so special. never until today i was held by a small child who is in our blood line, and that made me love her more. even we had a good and funny time in the clinic, she was in my arm, we were watching tv, drinking water, and making sound we ourselves did not even understand. haha! last week she was diagonised with Enterovirus, but fortunately today's fever was not caused by that. thank God! soon after the prescription, she started getting hyper again! amazing, she recovered just in minutes!

thank God i'm feeling peaceful now. i really look forward to this summer, i totally need a space out. i have always had a tendency to be alone, or to go somewhere make some new friends, to get myself far far away from where i have always been; but i have come to realise that i need old friends too. that's why i'm looking forward to meeting Becky, whom i have never met since our graduation in Britain.