song time

"everything i do, i do it for you" by Bryan Adams

first time i heard this song was in my first grade of junior high, from the trailer of the movie "Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves", featured by Kevin Costner. i have deeply loved this song ever since then.

there are many romantic songs, but in my view Bryan Adams' is the best. he has a nice, attractive, sexy and unique husky voice. another singer also with a husky voice is Rod Stewart, but Bryan's is relatively more lively, Rod's indolent.

anyway it's just my opinion. click the link below and have a listen to "everything i do, i do it for you"

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lyrics from http://www.lyrics007.com/Bryan%20Adams%20Lyrics/(Everything%20I%20Do)%20I%20Do%20It%20For%20You%20Lyrics.html

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

lifeguard

one month lifeguard training finally ended yesterday. though i'm still not sure whether i will be a lifeguard in the future, i have learned so much during the past month.

the first saturday of the training pastor called me and in our conversation he expressed he doesn't agree with my absence for lifeguard, which he thinks is less important than God's thing; but this morning when i saw my swimming kits (swimming cap, fin, breathing tube, snorkeling goggles and new goggles given by our chief coach), i was glad i made this decision. who knows when the skills will be useful in the future? who knows when i might use CPR skills? (well, of course i do not wish the CPR skills being used but that's just an in-case-thing) also the swimming partners i have in this class are great guys. they are still very young, but their lively spirits have refreshed me so much from my job and...from this complicated world maybe. yesterday was our final test, and after the test we had three swimming competitions and everyone was just crazy excited as if their adrenalin was shot up high! haha! in my swimming life i'd never felt so happy before!

this is what God has given me.

after the test we are going to do our interns four times and then be qualified as a real lifeguard, that will be when our responsibility starts.

followed by lifeguard training is scuba diving class. looking forward to it!

swimming cap and goggles. i was so thrilled when i was given this gift! i had been considering to buy a pair of new goggles! thank you, coaches!

(for more information please go to the blog of 台北縣救難大隊 or 板橋智樂游泳池)

time to let go

after so many years i finally have come to realise that it is probably hard for everyone to be understanding. i remember when i was a small child the adults always taught us kids to learn "standing in another's place" or "wearing one's shoes", but nowadays it seems just a WORD for me, because not many people even adults can successfully achieve this.

i think it is time to let go. not anymore will i ask others to do this but to ask myself to achieve this. i myself should understand that "understanding" could be a difficult thing for some. but, as i said on facebook, "if there is someone who understands you, stands by you, comforts you when you're down, encourages you when you're not so sure, treasure him/her, don't take them for granted, cuz you can never be luckier to find such a person in your life", if you have found such person, treasure it, treasure them back.

i know

i know God will give me the desires of my heart
because He knows me more than i do
i know God has the best in store for me
because He created this world created me, and He loves me so much
what are laying ahead i have no idea
i just know God is leading me toward them

however
i know i am responsible for learning, being obedient, repentence, and faith,
because they are my parts

it's been hard recently
but i know God is with me

i'm still waiting
never will i give up

Trinity

i posted this on my facebook note last week...
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title: why are some Bible verses missing in NIV and some other versions?

i was translating some materials for the church and found Matthew 17:21 is missing in NIV, yet Chinese version has this verse. so i googled and found there are many other more in the missing lists (or being put into Notes); yet they're not missing in King James Version. don't understand how so?

Revelation 22:18-19 (NIV) say,

18 I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this book: If anyone adds anything to them, God will add to him the plagues described in this book.

19 And if anyone takes words away from this book of prophecy, God will take away from him his share in the tree of life and in the holy city, which are described in this book.

if so, then who on earth has the right to take those words away? is this changing God's words?

---missing list, found on www.jesus-is-lord.com---
Matthew 12:47, Matthew 18:11, Matthew 21:44, Matthew 23:14, Mark 7:16, Mark 9:44, Mark 9:46, Mark 11:26, Mark 15:28, Mark 16:9-20, Luke 17:36, Luke 22:44, Luke 22:43, Luke 23:17, John 5:4, John 7:53-8:11, Acts 8:37, Acts 15:34, Acts 24:7, Acts 28:29, Romans 16:24

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i have been asking some friends, and they have kindly replied me with their precious opinions. one friend gave me a link which is on NIV's defend, and the context of it and some other websites which depict more historical background as well as his view about God and human helped me learn that actually NIV is the one which is translated more accurately, carefully, and directly from Hebrew, Aramaic, Greek languages than KJV which was done in 7 years with over 50 scholars (hundreds for NIV). the achievement of it had been most likely influenced by government, for me it means KJV can't be as accurate as NIV.

by the way, KJV was done based on a manuscript around 1500AD, yet the ones NIV was based on were over 1000 years older, the answer can't be much clearer!

all of this made me rethink about Trinity (God, Holy Son and Holy Spirit). what i've made sure are:

1. Trinity was from the Latin word "Trinitas", the birth of it was originated from the discussion about the characteristics of God, Holy Son and the Holy Spirit. afterwards people chose it for explanation;

2. Jesus didn't have clear discussions or instructions about Trinity the word;

3. throughout the history, politics had had great influences over religion and given "Trinity" stronger standing place, in another word human "selected" Trinity.

until today i couldn't understand since Jesus didn't teach Trinity, then why people keep using the word.

then what will i do?

i believe God, i believe Jesus, and i know Holy Spirit has been working in me; yet, i don't believe human mind. how dare people who tried to define God's characteristics with their limited knowledge, just like human try to define the whole universe with only some equations and rules?

i think i will not trust Trinity this man-made word unless God reveals it to me.

I LOVE SUMMER

now i was here again at the starbucks on yang ming mountain. today everywhere was scorching, and it felt great to enjoy a mug of latte in this peaceful place. suddenly i understood one thing: with all the dull feeling i had had during the past weeks, what i need is just a simple life like NOW: no need to worry about duty, it doesn't matter where i'm at. what had been in my mind all the time were just about "job is boring", "life doesn't change at all", "no freshing and new stuff comes up." how on earth can i get used to this UNCHANGE while change is my favourate?
but, situation's been a little different since friday:

a new idea went into me about how to improve bumper's assembility by introducing structure of arch bridge. cool huh!? that was wisdom of ancient Chinese, and i'm really excited about applying this into car part!

also, family around me, which always comforts and strengthens me up;

church friends are nice, like James and Bi Jing who love motorcycles as well, and we have so much to talk about motorcycle! Bi Jing said to me today that she so much wants to try on the rear seat of my bike. they mentioned about a 400cc hippie motorcycle they had in thailand years ago, but James said now he doesn't have much gut to ride as before. lol!! Pancho is a nice guy too. he loves sharing and is caring for people. also Tony and Nelson and pastor and Justin...i believe God has finally answered my prayer request of having spiritual brothers =)

lifeguard training, which starts today, is one of the plans i have been looking forward to. coaches said there are gonna be a lot to learn, such as CPR, techniques of saving and taking drowning struggling swimmers ashore, and probably, most likely we will have chances to ride jet ski!!! awesome!!

talk of lifeguard, this morning i had a test which is on condition of finishing 400m in 12 minutes (the poster said); but before the test the examiner cut it down to 200m within 6 minutes and i couldn't understand why until the starting of the test: many swimmers are actually not that good at swimming! as for me, i had been nervous since last night to the point that heart almost at my mouth; but today after the test, to my surprise i was the fastest swimmer of all, and i was chosen as second leader in our squad. what an honour, yet i wasn't expecting that!

another plan i have is purchase a big bike as soon as my savings insurance ends its term. this has been my dream all the time, and it's about time to make it come true.

below are two bikes off which i can't take my eyes


KAWASAKI Z1000 (picture from www.kawasaki.com)



SUZUKI B-KING (picture from http://www.suzukicycles.com/)

6 more days to go

before swim test.

there is going to be a swim test on this coming sunday before the beginning of lifeguard course. each swimmer has to pass the test by finishing 400m in 12 minutes (100 freestyle, 100 breast stroke, and the other 200m can be chosen by swimmers). today as usual i went swimming and after finishing 1200m, i tested 3 times how fast i could do. first was 9 minutes, second and third were 8 minutes, well, i think it should be no problem then. but i will keep testing and get myself used to the speed and force i have to make. of course the faster the better.

by the time to leave, i jumped out of water and was ready to change. i passed by the smaller pool aside, made a spur of the moment decision to jump into it. there was no one but me in the kid's pool. it felt wonderful! knees half-bent, my whole body emerged with my head above water surface, looking at the other side and recalling when i was kid i always started from there to here, recalling the first time i learned to emerge myself in water, remembering the first time i choked and it felt terrible and scary. that was the most peaceful moment i enjoyed after all these years.

somehow, i miss my childhood life.

damn i'm good

Summer is the most perfect season for swimming. I started swimming since early April, but hadn't enjoyed it until Dragon Boat Festival holiday which marked the coming of summer. Today, as usual, i went swimming after the reheasal of the concert, it felt so good jumping into pool especially in this hot summer. i planned to swim 3,000m, but when i did 1,000m i noticed a guy was swimming abreast me and even trying to take over. I was thinking "oh this guy is good, it's gonna be exciting if we race." Yet he stopped for a while and I kept swimming until the end of 1,200m, me and he kicked off at the same time, and he became real fast and I was like "O~~~right~ let's race then!" Then it just started! He was real good, it became hard to catch up with him, but at time I took over. It kept going like this and I choked a bit and felt a bit tired and we were still side by side. At the final 50m I decided to give my full power and then after overtaking him I had to stop. I was just an arm length ahead of him, but he kept swimming, didn't stop with me. He's a real good swimmer, and the race was nice. I'm proud of myself too because I didn't learn swimming from any couch, yet I was able to overtake him! I couldn't stop saying to myself "damn I'm good!"

ready to climb up from the deepest down

the company i visited today is quite spacious in its rectangular shape and has a clean environment, which reminds me of Triumph Motorcycle Ltd., they are both resemble in this way.

it was hard to concentrate. All what in my mind were “changing job”, “this is not what i want”, “i don’t want to be an engineer after this”…etc. Yet I’m still quite wondering: what do i want? What do I lack? What do I need?

i need a break, and “small summer” would be a great chance for this. i called Becky and she’s totally alright with my visiting Hong Kong. she doesn’t have summer holidays as i do, occasionally has to work on Saturdays. anyway, i will have to check up my schedule again, seems like i can only fly to Hong Kong after small summer, but that’s even better, as i can spend my small summer holidays on scuba diving course! grrrrrrreat! busy summer is coming, and i totally look forward to it!

i planned to swim just as i usually did, but as antoinette had fever and her body temperature was a bit high, me and mom decided to take her to children clinic. while we were on scooter, she sat between me and mom and her small arms around my waist and that was so special. never until today i was held by a small child who is in our blood line, and that made me love her more. even we had a good and funny time in the clinic, she was in my arm, we were watching tv, drinking water, and making sound we ourselves did not even understand. haha! last week she was diagonised with Enterovirus, but fortunately today's fever was not caused by that. thank God! soon after the prescription, she started getting hyper again! amazing, she recovered just in minutes!

thank God i'm feeling peaceful now. i really look forward to this summer, i totally need a space out. i have always had a tendency to be alone, or to go somewhere make some new friends, to get myself far far away from where i have always been; but i have come to realise that i need old friends too. that's why i'm looking forward to meeting Becky, whom i have never met since our graduation in Britain.

damn shit

i hadn't been happy during the past two days. i totally got pissed off and yesterday when i was on the way home, i couldn't stop shouting to God (which is not good i know). i know this is a training, God allowed this for my good. same things do not happen just once, they keep repeating and even i did my best to sort them out, they still happened after sometime. this is why i'm annoyed. also, i shouted to God, i have learned and can be understanding to people now, but why i am not treated likewise? i told God now i truly believe human are a creature of selfish, they always want something from you, yet they are lazy to make even an effort.

i'm so tired of this... during work time i have to get things done properly; for the church i have translations (which fortunately is my favourite thing to do); take my motorcycle for maintenance; girlfriend is not happy with me spending insufficient time online with her; i need to spend time with my beloved family; and i also need my private time, especially after a long hard day of work...

but where is my dream? where is my fucking dream? damn i haven't achieved anything and i fucking hate this!

i'm really tired...i'm sorry God, this time i don't care that much any more. i want happiness. i don't mind how those people think of me. i'm a stink jerk in their eyes anyway, i'm not going to defend for myself anymore. let go~