today came through a question that, about gnosis, since it is so easy to see, why can people not understand?
probably doesn't matter, 'cause this question has lasted over 2000 years and to which no answer can be found immediately i guess.
even though, i'm ready to go back and start with an English class, to which i'm looking forward :-)
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
CNY
of this year is a bit different from before. have had more chance to chat with fa on the way back home from countryside. the conversation in the car alone was probably more than we had the last whole year, which is a good thing. i'm glad we have a breakthrough already.
mum's caught a cold since one month ago during which she had been coughing fiercely, and i was afraid she might have tubing infection. until four days ago her coughing started to ease, but then came the swell on her face and a lump under her ear. all of us were worried that it might be cellulitis, but today after CAT scan the doctor couldn't be sure about it. the only thing the doc can do for now is ask mum to take some antibiotics and get good rests, then go for another further check on wednesday.
i'm worried about it. truly. for now i can completely be sure the reason of coming back to taiwan is to spend sufficient time with family instead of working abroad. i can't afford losing family, neither can i bear nor just imagine it. the other day, not long ago, i suddenly noticed my parents have aged so much...and it seems getting really fast. that night when i was running, a lot of my childhood memories came rushing back in my mind. all my naughtiness and wrongdoings that could bring sadness to mum felt like knife stabing me. it was a complex feeling, and i almost cried.
fa and mum are now at the home in Long Tan, and this morning me and my sister will go there being with mum, making sure that she gets sufficient rest (she's almost like workaholic).
God...although i don't consider myself as a christian anymore, i still wish You could kindly lay Your hands on my family.
mum's caught a cold since one month ago during which she had been coughing fiercely, and i was afraid she might have tubing infection. until four days ago her coughing started to ease, but then came the swell on her face and a lump under her ear. all of us were worried that it might be cellulitis, but today after CAT scan the doctor couldn't be sure about it. the only thing the doc can do for now is ask mum to take some antibiotics and get good rests, then go for another further check on wednesday.
i'm worried about it. truly. for now i can completely be sure the reason of coming back to taiwan is to spend sufficient time with family instead of working abroad. i can't afford losing family, neither can i bear nor just imagine it. the other day, not long ago, i suddenly noticed my parents have aged so much...and it seems getting really fast. that night when i was running, a lot of my childhood memories came rushing back in my mind. all my naughtiness and wrongdoings that could bring sadness to mum felt like knife stabing me. it was a complex feeling, and i almost cried.
fa and mum are now at the home in Long Tan, and this morning me and my sister will go there being with mum, making sure that she gets sufficient rest (she's almost like workaholic).
God...although i don't consider myself as a christian anymore, i still wish You could kindly lay Your hands on my family.
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