tiny part of me is like Sniff, always sniff something new and go for it;
good part of me is like Scurry, always scurry here and there for something i'm eager for;
large part of me is Haw, still learning and sometimes afraid though, i love to soak up good sentences, no matter they're from the movies or books or pop up in my heart, i write them down to encourage myself for something better; but...
there is still Hem in me, afraid to change, just doesn't want any other cheese but the one with a hole in it.
if i keep being like this, then i will never find any other new cheese.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
perseverance
no idea what is laying ahead
but i know that is Thy grace
as long as i take heart and keep at it
with determination and hope in Thee
achievement?
i managed to finish "The Reader" last night. there is a great sense of achievement indeed, but when my brain came to rest the idea that the relationship between me and fa hasn't been better yet followed up. hmm.....you really need to make more effort on this Eugene!
Friday, February 19, 2010
six elements
Happiness
Love
Trust
Purity
Communication
Understanding
which ones have been found?
which are still being sought and needed urgently?
Love
Trust
Purity
Communication
Understanding
which ones have been found?
which are still being sought and needed urgently?
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Coupons & Books
it's been raining like 3 or 4 days in a row, and my mood seemed to be a bit gloomy. i'd stayed at home for a whole day and i decided that i should go out for a walk. well, i had $3,000 coupons in hands and i wanted to see if i could consume them at the bookshop or not. bingo~ hey hey~ i bought 4 books in a row and this was my first time ever buying so many books and get a VIP card and $500 coupon. no more saying, here are the books i bought.
on the left is English grammar and usage book for enhancing my grammatical concept, which is not good at the moment.
the top on is Who Moved My Cheese which i have craved to read but not bought one yet.
the middle left is the biography of Albert Einstein; but the middle right is the one i am currently reading (the rest half of the book unfinished yet).
on the right is A Child's First Dictionary, which contains a lot of cute icons alongside each vocabulary and i believe this can make reading more interesting!
what does this mean? "well you will have a very busy schedule of the year, eugene~~"
over the msn i told Susan the reason i keep learning and improving my English is probably because i want to chat with my kids in English. well, obviously the "kids" are not coming yet. but another very important reason is learning makes me happy. oh by the way, book purchasing makes my mood fly! i hadn't find it until today, i'm surprised indeed.
Lunch
my whole family except for me went to the meal with uncles and they set off in the early morning. it was freezing and raining outside, and YES fantastic was that i didn't have to attend so i took my good time sleeping until 11am, haha!
at noon i went for lunch, i met an elder guy who had slept on the street bench for the whole night. a sound risen in my brain telling me to buy a bowl of hot noodles for him. it was natural, and i knew it was from God. i went to an E-A-Mi-Sua shop and found that it was not open. then i went back to another new shop nearby for shrimp fried noodles, one bowl for me, the other for the elder guy along with a bowl of hot oyster soup. before making the payment i bought a can of hot ovaltine but then found that it was probably not good for the health of a person in his age. so i might as well give him the noodles and soup. so i fetched him these and then left, but until then i had been nervous and feeling embarrassed, strange. i didn't want anyone to see me do it. "Lord, i do this for You, not for people to see me. You want me to do this, and i did it and that's it, no others." i kept mumbling in my mind, hahaha!! funny me!
at noon i went for lunch, i met an elder guy who had slept on the street bench for the whole night. a sound risen in my brain telling me to buy a bowl of hot noodles for him. it was natural, and i knew it was from God. i went to an E-A-Mi-Sua shop and found that it was not open. then i went back to another new shop nearby for shrimp fried noodles, one bowl for me, the other for the elder guy along with a bowl of hot oyster soup. before making the payment i bought a can of hot ovaltine but then found that it was probably not good for the health of a person in his age. so i might as well give him the noodles and soup. so i fetched him these and then left, but until then i had been nervous and feeling embarrassed, strange. i didn't want anyone to see me do it. "Lord, i do this for You, not for people to see me. You want me to do this, and i did it and that's it, no others." i kept mumbling in my mind, hahaha!! funny me!
shrimp fried noodles and latte were for myself, ovaltine was originally for him, but now already in my stomach. i think in the future i will teach my kids to do the same, it is important for people to know when to offer our help when we are in a better position.
Chiaolin's wedding at Chang Rong Grand Hotel - Feb 17th
it had been 3 years since my last meet with Chiaolin in West Surrey near London. at the end of 2008 Chiaolin informed me she was gonna get married and invited me to her wedding held in July, 2009. due to my work i wasn't able to go. Steven and she planned one more banquet in Tainan held today, and this time i attended.
Chiaolin's mom and Steven, handsome groom
there she is, Chiaolin!
Chiaolin and Steven. she's beautiful in wedding gown
paternal and maternal families and new couples lining to make a toast
cutting cake symbolises two hearts melting together
end of wedding the new couples greeted and delivered candies
Chiaolin's mom and Steven, handsome groom
there she is, Chiaolin!
Chiaolin and Steven. she's beautiful in wedding gown
paternal and maternal families and new couples lining to make a toast
cutting cake symbolises two hearts melting together
end of wedding the new couples greeted and delivered candies
it felt complicating as soon as i got to tainan away from which i had been for 6 years. well, i had made twice visits here when dating with Nora, but those were short. so far i haven't made it a long stay. the church friends i met today were Becky and Sako, Francie and Sue were not there, i was disappointed, let along Amy, Steve and even John Newman, my first pastor.
on my way back to Taipei, i couldn't help thinking that "Chiaolin seems to have received the life she'd ever dreamed of, what about me?" things like moving to the US and marriage are what i am still pursuing, but things have gone confusing these days: if i'm going to the US, what about my family here? am i gonna marry to a girl who is wilful and am i gonna be able to tolerate that? is PhD necessary for me or not? i want my life fresh and special, when will it for me to throw away the oars forever? i used to think that my future and dream should be priority of my life, but the hesitation grows when seeing my grandparents and other taiwanese elders under heavy healthcares, am i gonna be able to stand it one day my parents go on the same way? ever since met Amy, her independence and personality have become my standard to look for a long term relationship. obviously i haven't found one, and i don't know if i should keep insisting on it. during the banquet me and a couple talked about marriage. the wife told me she's been living an independent and freedom life due to the diversity in her home. her father is from indonesia, most of the paternal family have been there and hence no trace of "family thing" is in her family, which is totally different from her husband's conservative one. she suggested me to pray to God whose answer is always the best and of course far better than our wills. i told her about the line thing, and she reckoned this is what i think, and so i have to try my best to let go. this does make sense, because if we rank our thoughts as the best one, then we can't tolerate and be happy anymore. if we let go and think for others, that's time to find happiness. strange but true, it does remind me of lowering myself for the better good.
still have no idea about future, but...i will make the best to do my part. God will deal with the rest.
family gathering at Lu Gang - Feb 16th
this was our paternal family's must-do annual activity which happened on the third day of the Chinese New Year. Maternal one was one day ahead actually, but i didn't bring my camera so there were no pictures for blogging...(well, i'm sorry, next time i will definitely bring it!)
as usual my family set off at around quarter past 8am, but yesterday i had done some research on the route and found the restaurant is quite close to ARTC, so we arrived there a bit earlier than expected under my guide. the weather was gloomy, but it didn't bother me strolling around this place. before long i trotted on the lane leading to Tian-Hou temple.
it's always good to have convenient store like FamilyMart or 7-11 alongside. at the front was a massive hung bell at which people knocked for a year's fortunate and prosperity. actually loads of people were in the queue waiting to do it.
see the large crowded there
and a cup of latte in my hand
the house of my great grandfather born in late Qing dynasty. it is old enough to be a 3rd level historical site.
Brooke Shields, charming~ artists of 80's and 90's always seem attractive to me.
this must be a license plate of at least 20 years time!
entering into grandparents' room
where my grandparents live is called three-section compound, or San-He-Yuan in Chinese, which is a central building with the other two perpendicularly attaching to its both sides, and hence forms a large playground in the middle. when i was around 6 or 7 years of age, the playgrond was covered with dust and mud instead of nowaday's tarmac. left building, which has probably become a storage room, was for breeding farming cows with whose help grandfather planted crops like corn and peanut, which my family had received annually for like 10 years at least. (for the grace of their help, my grandfather did not allow us to eat steak or beef noodles.) further over the road was a massive bamboos, and it becomes another building now. the girl in black long coat and pink scarf is my younger sister, who was 4 to 5 years old. time flies!
address plate
as usual my family set off at around quarter past 8am, but yesterday i had done some research on the route and found the restaurant is quite close to ARTC, so we arrived there a bit earlier than expected under my guide. the weather was gloomy, but it didn't bother me strolling around this place. before long i trotted on the lane leading to Tian-Hou temple.
it's always good to have convenient store like FamilyMart or 7-11 alongside. at the front was a massive hung bell at which people knocked for a year's fortunate and prosperity. actually loads of people were in the queue waiting to do it.
see the large crowded there
and a cup of latte in my hand
the house of my great grandfather born in late Qing dynasty. it is old enough to be a 3rd level historical site.
Brooke Shields, charming~ artists of 80's and 90's always seem attractive to me.
this must be a license plate of at least 20 years time!
entering into grandparents' room
where my grandparents live is called three-section compound, or San-He-Yuan in Chinese, which is a central building with the other two perpendicularly attaching to its both sides, and hence forms a large playground in the middle. when i was around 6 or 7 years of age, the playgrond was covered with dust and mud instead of nowaday's tarmac. left building, which has probably become a storage room, was for breeding farming cows with whose help grandfather planted crops like corn and peanut, which my family had received annually for like 10 years at least. (for the grace of their help, my grandfather did not allow us to eat steak or beef noodles.) further over the road was a massive bamboos, and it becomes another building now. the girl in black long coat and pink scarf is my younger sister, who was 4 to 5 years old. time flies!
the central building, and that is still my younger sister
address plate
Friday, February 12, 2010
Doctor of Philosophy
http://www-2.cs.cmu.edu/~harchol/gradschooltalk.pdf
Applying to Ph.D. Programs in Computer Science - by Mor Harchol-Balter
School of Computer Science, Carnegie Mellon University
this afternoon i asked my uni classmate for what he wanted to go for PhD, as he was busy working on his project, he simply gave me the above link which i found it extremely helpful on assessing why and for what reason i want to PhD. interestingly, this morning i heard a radio hostess saying that "it is a wrong thinking that you are waiting for the best timing. if you want to make a change, just do it, don't think any action is useless before any change can be made." yep, it's time to start specifically thinking, time to get real!
i keep asking myself:
do i enjoy discover something new that no one else know about yet?
do i like researching?
am i able to work alone while no one in the world know the answer?
do i want to make a change for this world?
what topic/field am i interested in?
am i able to stand frustration when nothing is done probably in a long time?
do i like looking and thinking into detail?
would i like to work as a researcher or professor after PhD?
do i want to PhD just because i'm fed up with my current job, or i truly want it?
besides the above questions to ask, with the great help of the article, i'm getting a clearer idea about PhD, and i think associating with an adviser and alone most of the time is not a problem for me, well, sometimes i even love to work alone.
i want to do it, i wish to go for it, and i'mma make a changet this year!
Applying to Ph.D. Programs in Computer Science - by Mor Harchol-Balter
School of Computer Science, Carnegie Mellon University
this afternoon i asked my uni classmate for what he wanted to go for PhD, as he was busy working on his project, he simply gave me the above link which i found it extremely helpful on assessing why and for what reason i want to PhD. interestingly, this morning i heard a radio hostess saying that "it is a wrong thinking that you are waiting for the best timing. if you want to make a change, just do it, don't think any action is useless before any change can be made." yep, it's time to start specifically thinking, time to get real!
i keep asking myself:
do i enjoy discover something new that no one else know about yet?
do i like researching?
am i able to work alone while no one in the world know the answer?
do i want to make a change for this world?
what topic/field am i interested in?
am i able to stand frustration when nothing is done probably in a long time?
do i like looking and thinking into detail?
would i like to work as a researcher or professor after PhD?
do i want to PhD just because i'm fed up with my current job, or i truly want it?
besides the above questions to ask, with the great help of the article, i'm getting a clearer idea about PhD, and i think associating with an adviser and alone most of the time is not a problem for me, well, sometimes i even love to work alone.
i want to do it, i wish to go for it, and i'mma make a changet this year!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Graduate Record Exam
the progress is a bit delayed, but if i keep doing 10 pages a day, then probably the whole book of 600 pages can be finished in one month for sure. yet this is just the first time reading, i will have to go back and read the second time, the third time, which should be faster than the first reading.
plan to look for writing guide book, which i should buy around 2 weeks ago. hmmm, the time of big exam is near, and it feels exciting!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GWQ-oDMG6g&feature=player_embedded
Never Gonna Be Alone by Nickelback, referenced from http://www.youtube.com/
love this song, especially the line "oh you gotta live every single day, like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?" yep, life's too short to spend time on things that piss you off, right? just strive to be happy and live out every single day!
it's been long since my last drink at starbucks. this afternoon before going in i parked my motorbike at the door. a woman came ask me some questions like how much displacement it's got and how much it costs. well, this's odd then, because never was there a woman asking me about my bike.
Never Gonna Be Alone by Nickelback, referenced from http://www.youtube.com/
love this song, especially the line "oh you gotta live every single day, like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?" yep, life's too short to spend time on things that piss you off, right? just strive to be happy and live out every single day!
it's been long since my last drink at starbucks. this afternoon before going in i parked my motorbike at the door. a woman came ask me some questions like how much displacement it's got and how much it costs. well, this's odd then, because never was there a woman asking me about my bike.
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